I Fight On...

Last night, I had two more convulsions. Going forward, I won't keep calling these 'episodes' seizures. In my estimation, I can't see how it is possible to have 21 seizures in four weeks. The night before, I 'collapsed' in my room. My legs became jelly and I just fell. I was disoriented for a few and then felt tired. I stayed up for a bit, but I was kind of off.

I worked out last night for a bit at the gym. I can tell I am pushing myself really hard. Success is my only option. Failure is not. The time for giving up is not available. It can't be.  I did however, decide to keep on the Topamax (4x25mg@night). I have basketball practice tonight, so no gym.... but hey, I'm still trucking along...The Dance by Garth Brooks

I love that song.

I Fight On

Each morning I rise to pain in my heart and head,

Each night I go to bed I wonder will I wake to Heaven instead.

As I travel through the fog of each moment cherished,

The world seems hazy yet my mind seems unblemished.

I know what to say but not quite what to do,

Each step I take seems the next might be untrue.

I fight on to feel the sunshine on my face once again,

I fight on to let the moonlight dance in my eyes now and then.

I look around to see who stands with me, and find once in a while,

There is silence, just me and me alone, still I find peace... and I smile.

My words are oft misunderstood and I speak profoundly that others find lies,

When only I know my heart and I know I speak truth yet they can't look me in the eye.

My walk is strained at times, and many are quick to run past me,

I can only smile or cry becuase it depends on which day you catch me.

My tears are true and my back is heavy laden with my load,

Jesus said 'Would you like mine instead?' I know I'm not that bold.

I fight on to live even though even those I love might sometimes strive to see me suffer,

I fight on because sometimes I know I might need to feel some rain before I find cover.

If you were to look into my eyes there are things that you might see,

You would see everything you need to know about the man that is me.

The things that each of us go through are hard and we cannot, must not, and should not belittle one another based on opinion. The world is based on opinion, not fact. It is disheartening how so many can wage wars, violence, and isolation based on a feeling or a set of beliefs. Education and discussion is the only way to combat these things. Encourage discussion amongst each other. Even Peter and Paul had disagreements over who would be 'Sgt-at-arms' so to speak for Jesus in the NEW KINGDOM. If that discussion had never have taken place, would we have the understanding we do? Maybe, maybe not. Discussion needs to take place... amongst each other... for each other... with each other.  Fight on... FOR one another.