- I've become Head Coach of Junior Pee Wee with Leominster Pop Warner.
- Still working for Sprint (regretfully)
- I never did strap up with either team (Sabercats or Blue Raiders)
I had surgery about a month ago because I had appendicitis and it absolutely had to come out. I was out of work for about a week. That was a tough week. I'm not used to being dependent on others. The surgeon told me I should take two weeks off because of how 'invasive' the surgery was. I only saw that I needed one week off.
A few thoughts, that I have had since my last post.
As I watch the leaves change, I realize that my life is changing as well. I look back to my twenties and I ask how did I do the things I used to. I look at from when I started this post and I see a defeated man. I was active in the church and had a direction. Yet, I felt that with being sick I couldn't be fully happy. When I started this, I was a Southern Baptist and now I am a spiritual journeyman. God resides in all things, even when we are wrong He is always there... waiting for us.
I think about all the violence in the world and the natural destruction that is happening and I see looming in the distance, 2012. December 23rd to be exact. I'm not a survivalist or looking to definitely die, but you have to wonder what the hell is going on? Is it for real? We will find out in a little over a year won't we?
If we examine our lives as we hit our thirties, some (not all) of us will see that the world around us is not the same one we grew up in. When I was a child, we would go out and play all day. Sun up til sundown. Our parents never worried. They didn't have to worry much about the dangers of child abductions or children doing stupid stuff as we do now. There is a difference now. Growing up there was almost an understanding of community of one. My friends' parents would look out for me as if I was their own. Even people that merely knew my parents would look out for me. I still feel the same way now as an adult. That's why I volunteer to work with children. Some parents have this me and mine mentality. Almost as if to say 'I couldn't care less what happens to your child, as long as mine is okay.' The age of recklessness no long stops in our twenties. Now, it carries even into older generations. It's the mantra I've heard some say 'If you knew better you'd do better.' Some never had a parent or adult to teach them to want better so they are just 'comfortable' in their own ways... even if it is detrimental to everyone around them. Some don't feel the need to look out for others around them for fear of backlashing or criticism from that person. A community is what is needed in our world. Even if it means ruffling a few feathers. We must invest in ourselves to prevent further generations from having this dilemma.
Last year, I made a goal. To say what truly was in my heart if asked.I have held to that statement and I haven't waivered yet. In fact, I even tell people it's okay to ask me questions because I don't hold back.
I want so many things still for my life. I still hope to DJ once again. I hope to still strap up and go after that ring. We accept defeat so easily because it seems easier than trying again. On Facebook, so many people will post their world but won't address the issue with the people they are talking about. In current times, it seems easier to hide behind a computer screen than to address it face to face. I guess people must really think life needs to be easy. We are all guilty of it. It's not wrong or right it's just not true. We have to fight for every inch. Take each morsel of life and savor it. Recognize the beauty of everything you do. There is no day... like today.
No day but today... start now and live like it's your last. You can and you will make it. Why? Cause we will do it together.
